Why I Hate Statistics

Most of my posts are going to be funny (or at least they’ll try to be). This post, though, has been much harder for me to write, probably because it touches on some very real and very tough emotional times my wife and I went through.

In the early fall of 2010, my wife had a blood test that indicated she was pregnant. Ever since we got married in 2006, we’d discussed having children and had finally decided we were ready to be parents. So we were excited when we got the good news.

Now, if you’re doing the math, you’ve figured out things didn’t go exactly as planned–or that my son gestated for an exceptionally long 21 months.

There’s this strange thing called a molar pregnancy. You can click the link if you want to know what the heck that is. The odds of being lucky enough to suffer one of these are 1 in 1,500.

We were the one.

We’d had a celebratory dinner with Natalie’s parents, told our families and a few friends, started picking out names, thought about where the nursery was going to be. When we went to the first OB/GYN appointment in October, they couldn’t find the baby’s heartbeat, but I wasn’t too concerned. The nurse said at such an early stage in the pregnancy, it wasn’t uncommon. Statistically speaking, the embryo is so tiny at that point that sometimes they can’t find it without a full-blown ultrasound. The appointment went longer than expected and I ended up having to leave to go back to work–I’m a teacher, and I had an after-school commitment to tutor some kids. I was excited about our new family.

When I left school, I noticed a voicemail from my mother-in-law. It turned out there was a different reason they couldn’t find the heartbeat. Natalie was getting emergency blood work in preparation for a surgery to remove the mole.

The rest of that month was a blur. Actually, looking back, the rest of that year was a blur, and much of 2011 as well.

That’s why when we found out last September that we were pregnant again, we were understandably worried. We didn’t tell anyone except close family until we were well into the second trimester. My wife cried when we first saw the baby on an ultrasound. I may have cried a little too.

In November my wife had a prescribed screening procedure done, a quad screen to check for various abnormalities. None of the doctors told us to skip it, but if we had realized what it is, what it can and cannot tell you, we would have just said no thanks. Like the name says, it’s a screening test–not a diagnostic test.

The results came back with a flag for Down syndrome. The doctor told us not to worry about it, that in most cases these results meant nothing. It wasn’t diagnostic, just a screening.

Sure, we said. No problem! We won’t consider the fact that our child may have a genetic disorder that will drastically change both his life and ours.

The best part was they gave us odds. 1 in 24, meaning that out of every 24 women that received the results Natalie did, one of them would have a child with Down’s.

Numbers are cold, hard, implacable things. They can’t relate the feelings or emotions associated with this kind of information. And given we’d already hit the statistical lottery with our molar pregnancy…well, there were a few sleepless nights.

We had to go and get a special ultrasound, which we both took off work for. The procedure involved a cranky ultrasound doctor and a genetic specialist who asked us, with the sincerity of a door-to-door missionary, “Do you know why you’re here?”

My existential answer (do any of us know why we’re here?) was not well received. The great news was that the ultrasound took our odds down to 1:48. Just a little over 2% chance. As the cranky ultrasound tech told us, though, even this special ultrasound was not diagnostic. “An ultrasound can’t tell you if a baby has Down syndrome. No way, no how.”

Now we were cranky because we’d used personal days to take yet another test that resolved nothing. The genetic specialist did say they could do an amniocentesis, which is diagnostic. It’s very safe, with a risk of miscarriage somewhere around 1:400. Those damned statistics again. We declined.

It turns out that, at least in the case of Down syndrome, there’s no difference in prenatal care for the mother. There’s also no extra preparation in terms of what we needed at home. People use the test to prepare themselves mentally or, alternatively, to decide whether to terminate the pregnancy.

Down syndrome isn’t a death sentence, and we both agreed that if our little guy had it, he’d still be our little guy. We’d love him and care for him the best we could. Still, I doubt there is any parent who hopes for a kid with Down’s.

The heartbreaking thing is, statistics (generally speaking) don’t lie. So in a sample of 48 sets of parents who got the same quad screen results, there is one couple who did not beat the odds. The doctors probably told that couple all the same things they told us–these results don’t really mean anything, it’s no reason to worry, everything will (most likely) be fine, it’s not a diagnosis. And part of me is glad we were not the lucky couple this time.

Now, out of all this there were two things that made me really cranky. First, I took a personal day for a test that was not diagnostic and didn’t assuage our fears at all, and we had to sit through the “why you’re here” talk, which didn’t offer anything beyond what you could find on Web MD. This also meant I had to take a day without pay after Wolfe was born to help my wife get around after her C-section. The second thing that upset me was that none of the doctors who gave us the screening results addressed the issue after our son was born. In fact, of the 1,200 (give or take) doctors who checked him out at the hospital, only one addressed it at all. He said we’d have to get blood testing done to be sure, but he’d bet Wolfe didn’t have Down’s. He liked the odds.



  1. Hollie · · Reply

    I’m sorry to hear of all the problems you and Natalie had to go through. I didn’t know about any of it but I do know that the stress can be overwhelming. So glad everything went well with your little one and even though all this can make you “cranky”……you both seem to be enjoying the role of parents!

  2. […] Everything’s fine, they said. Statistically, he’ll be ok. (But as I said before, I hate statistics.) However, he would need to come back for a follow-up test to make sure both ears were […]

  3. […] I took a total of five days off for my son’s birth. I was only planning on taking off three, but my wife had a C-section, so I thought it might be helpful for me to be home with her the first few days when she wasn’t supposed to lift anything heavier than air. Two of those days were unpaid, but my supervisor was very understanding and did not give me a hard time at all when I asked to take off extra time (I burned a couple of personal days on prenatal testing we later found out was pretty much useless). […]

  4. […] of my previous posts described how my wife and I suffered a molar pregnancy in […]

Unleash Your Own Crankiness

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )


Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: